So while everyone is at prom and I'm here waiting for them to all come home so I can spend the rest of the night in the city, I might as well write a blog. That's what my life amounts to, I guess.
I can't believe this week ends it all. Graduation is Saturday, and then I can finally kiss high school goodbye. It's such a bittersweet thing, though. I mean, I'm excited that I can finally move myself away from Deer Park and all the people I grew up with that I'd rather not know. Some of these people here made my life a living hell for a good three years straight. Some of these people did damage to me that's irreversible. But, it's those very people that made me into the person I am, too, so I do have to thank all those little bitches. You made me better than you. You gave me the stregnth and the eyes to get farther in life than you ever will. I win. Thank you.
Speaking of those little bitches, I'm kind of excited for my 10 year reunion already. I look foward to see all of them a good 50 pounds over weight with a sucky job (or a job that requires them to suck off their boss every hour just to stay employed, because they actually would agree to that), no one to love, and nothing to truly look foward to. There's a little thing called karma, and it will bite your fat ass. For some of you, it already has.
Anyway, back to the bittersweet ending of pretty much the first chapter in our lives. Although I truly can't stand most of my graduating class and don't even associate with the vast majority of them, they are still the people that I've grown up with. They are what I've known for these past 12 years. I don't think we really realize the effect we all have on each other on a daily basis, but I do think that people will start to see it when we start college. We all unintentionally take comfort in going to school day after day to walk the halls with the same familiar faces year after year. We leave for two months every year, and sometimes during that time off, we really do start to miss some people, but we always come back to see them again. That ends now. What follows up these two months is different than what we've always known. We're going from the small winding halls of DPHS to the big winding paths of a college campus, of our new home, of our new set of familiar faces. I think we all feel the same way: even though we say we hate each other, a small part of us all is really going to miss each other.
Saturday will be the last time I see the majority of the people I've known my whole live. I wish it could hit me then so I can take it in, but it won't. Oh well. I'm happy with the way everything ended, though. It's weird how life works out sometimes. Everything that had needed to be said for years suddenly was this year, particularly in the last few months. Like, there was this one kid that played a pretty huge roll in my life for, well tweleve years. But the way things played out were riduculous to say the least. Everything was left open for years, but in the last few months of school, things just fell into the right place to bring a sense of closure to it all. This isn't going to make sense to anyone other me, now that I'm thinking about it. But that's typical in some of these blogs. Oh well. But basically, everything that needed to be said was said. And not just in that one case. It's a nice way to leave things, I guess.
I feel old. The first chapter has been written and signed off.
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