Apparently when I get rid of one thing, all the others follow.
I've put myself in a mindset that I hate to be in. It sucks. But I can't fix it. Really, I just don't know what's going on anymore, with anything. I probably do it to myself. I always had the tendency to think about things so much to the point where I just confuse myself even more than I already was to begin with. Everything is just a little off now, that's all. I mean, everything was awesome. Real awesome. This year has been my favorite so far. But because it was so awesome, when things die down the tiniest bit, it seems worse than it really is. I'm probably not making any sense to whoever is reading this right now. Sorry.
When you're at the top, something will eventually knock you down. I went from feeling like the most loved person ever, for a good two months at least, to having nobody. Maybe I deserved this. Maybe I did it to myself, and I'm just blind to that fact.
I walk with blinders, never noticing what's at my side.
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