Get To Know Me.

You are the one that haunts my dreams. I never asked you to be there, yet you always are; always whispering the words I can't bare to hear. And now all I can do is hold onto the middle of this rope of uncertainty being pulled from opposite ends.

When you expect to feel everything and instead are left feeling nothing, it's a little hard to comprehend, especially when the confusion grows exponentially instead of supressing like you imagined it would.

I can't help feeling confused. Nobody can. I said what I did today to try to get my point into your tiny, closed-minded heads. It wasn't supposed to be taken literally, but your ignorance always seems to take a hold of you guys. And now, you think I'm this selfish, cold-hearted person. You're supposed to be some of the people that know me best, and I'm not going to lie, it did hurt a little bit that you thought I'd really be like that. These things seem to happen a lot to me, and my personality gets mistaken for something else. Something like that. Just go back to all the drama that unfolded with both Anthony and Greg. No, I won't let that go. Why, you ask? Because you don't let it go. Sure, you don't bring up the names anymore, but you do bring up the situations, and it's not who I am. I don't purposely try to do these things, it just kind of happens. Some part of my head looks at girls and thinks "Hey, catty bitch! Leave." Seriously. I don't like girls, and I never look at one and think to myself "Hmm...she seems like a cool person to get to know." It just doesn't happen. I just find myself befriending guys more. They are more interesting to me, more fun, more truthful, and just better friends in my eyes than girls. Now, I'm not saying the girl friends that I have are crap. They just happen to be the few good ones around. So don't get on me for this. I like you guys. AND I would never lead a guy on intentionally, knowing I don't want anything to do with him. I never have done that, and never intend to. That's not what I'm doing, so stop making false accusations and letting your ignorance make it's way to your mouth and out into the open. You're better off keeping your mouth shut about the things you know nothing about. Thanks :]