Torn Up In Bits and Pieces On The Floor

I can't remember the last time I felt like this. I'm miserable. I'm torn. I'm confused. I'm frustrated. I don't know what to do.

Just when I thought I decided on what I was going to do, you told me that and changed what I thought I knew. And now I'm like this.

I wrote in my once-daily journal for the first time tonight since August 16th. That's when you know...

I had high hopes for this month back home. You were the only reason I ever wanted to come home, and I hope you know that. But you let me down and I let myself down and this is all just pissing me off.


Positivity: I found out today I made the Dean's List.
Negativity: There's too much of it for me to even care about that.