"I Did This To Myself"

So Daddy says I'm a girl whose existence is pointless. I make nothing of myself. I'm worthless here. And that I might as well kill myself now if I think I can keep living life the way I am, because that's just not how the world works. Why am I a pointless nobody? Because I don't live my life the way society tells me to. Because I live my life for me, not you. Because the reason I do things is to be happy, so I actually want to live. I don't understand what the point in living is if you can't even be happy with yourself and where you are at. I don't understand how you can go your whole life living it the way other people expect you to, and living it for money alone. Money sucks. The economy sucks. I'm dead-ass broke. But you know what? I'm happy, and to me, that's the most important thing. You say it yourself; you can't say that for your own life. I don't know, maybe it's me, but I think you're life is the pointless one, not mine.

On another note, I make mistakes. You make mistakes. We all make mistakes. There's nothing wrong with actually being wrong as long as you learn something from it, and I'm learning with every step I take. And I'm learning even more now just how important honesty is. Telling someone the truth upfront is like getting stung by a little bumble bee. The sting hurts at first, but the pain eventually goes away, and it won't come back because that bumble bee loses it stinger and dies with just that one action. Keeping the truth hidden for a while and then having it slip out later on down the road is more like being stung by a bigass wasp. It hurts a hellalot. And the pain keeps coming back, because that wasp doesn't lose it's stinger with that one action. The action can repeat, and the pain doesn't subside as quickly or easily. Get it?

I don't even know if that's true. I'm pretty sure it is, though. But considering I'm fucking scared to death of bees, I never actually hang around them enough to get myself stung. I probably should just shut the hell up now. But really, like that stupid little saying goes, "Honesty is the best policy".

Why is it that once you're at the top, somebody is always there to try to pull you down?

Live it up.