Vent

Ughh I need to vent, and putting things up on here may be a mistake, but I can care less.

I can not stand when people try to one-up me. I can't even explain how much it pisses me off. Listen, it's not my fault that you need guys' attention to feel all confident about yourself, and in all honesty, I feel bad for you that that's what you need to thrive on just to feel good. If you stay like that, you're going to get caught in sucky situations in the future, so have fun. So when I start talking to these guys that I knew before you did and actually want to get to know them for good reasons, not just so I can say "ohhh a guy talks to me!", don't try taking it from me to feel better about yourself. So maybe I am blowing it out of proportion. But this is not the first time. And it does begin to look a little suspicious when you suddenly talk to certain people a hell of a lot more only after I tell you that they willingly talk to me and say certain things. And then you attempt to rub things in my face. I don't know if it's intentional or not, but it's what you are doing. Back off and stop trying to compete with me. It's not my fault, and I would like to talk to these people without feeling like I'm having a competition with you over their attention. It's so ridiculous and immature.

And don't worry, it's not only you, and like I said, it's not only this time.

Another thing I absolutly can not stand -- when people copy the things I do. Oh my god, it pisses me off to no end. I am my own person. Why don't you try being your own person, too? Really, it's fun. You should give it a try some time. I do the things I do because it's me. I don't do them to try to get you to follow me. Believe me, I don't want any little followers. Don't take credit for my work. Don't rip my style. Don't try getting into the things I'm into just because you want that kind of particular attention. For example, music. Don't say to me that you wish you can like music like I do just because you want people to see you a certain way. Please, that's pathetic. And it has been said to me before. If you really want to go to shows with me, go because you genuinely like the music, please, and not because of the array of guys. I mean, sure, the guys are a nice added bonus, but that's not what you go to shows for. But you know, whatever, if you want to do that, go ahead and look like an idiot. It still gives me somebody to go with and that's cool.

I hate followers. And I probably sound like such a bitch right now, but I don't care. I really just needed to say this stuff, and now I'm going to confuse the hell out of people who read this because they will think it's about them. And chances are, it's not.

Okay. I finished that song from the last blog. I'll probably post it a little later.
Thanks for wasting your time reading my complaints. Bye.