Shades and Shadows

The more time you spend thinking about pain, the more it hurts.

I wouldn't put this feeling into the category of "pain", however. It's more of frustration and doubt than anything else. Just the fact that this has happened for the second time in a row now, it just kind of makes you question people in general. It makes me question whether anyone is genuine anymore. For the second time in a row, I get screwed over in nearly identical ways. Someone says one thing while doing another thing behind my back -- a big thing. And then I find out by people just telling me. I confront the person; they lie. And then no more than a week later, their lies are exposed and I'm ditched for the girl hidden behind their back. And both times, everybody thought everything was so perfect. All of you guys told me not to believe this other guy, that all he was doing was feeding me bullshit lies to win me over him. Well look who was telling the truth now. I told you all along. I know who to believe about these things. Sincerity is radiated to those you stand next to. Anyone can see through insincerity.

Hanging onto a piece of the past
A piece that won't last
Unless those faulty eyes are uncovered
You live in a life of light
But your eyes see nothing more than darkness

Cut the strings tonight
Your hands raised to the sky
The stars won't abide the words spilling from tongue
You swore you had all that you wanted
I told you you won

Doubt and despair are the foundation
Damn my creation
Unless these heavy eyes are opened
I live in a life of deceit
But my eyes see nothing more than honesty

The shadows behind the curtains can only be seen in dim light
The darkness can't be defeated
Cut the strings tonight