Cyclic, Drug-Like Mind

And once again, I will say that everything happens for a reason.

Take what I just found out, for example. It all makes sense now why the one person I really want to get to know on this campus is the one person I haven't had a chance to talk to yet (keyword: yet. Remember, we still have over 3 years now). Everything falls into place, and everything eventually works itself out. It's nice. But this is fucking crazy, and it's still blowing my mind. It's a small world, that's for sure.

But now with that figured out and put aside, I'm still dealing with the issues of feeling like I'm leading people on accidentally, and that has got to be a sucky thing to feel on the opposite side. It's just my personally, I guess, and I don't know how to fix the problem while continuing to make new friends. I'm still just trying to adjust to this new life I have here, and I'm learning a little more each day. Well, sort of. Who knew that something like this can have its problems? I never thought that something so good, so desirable by most, could actually be considered a "curse" of some sort. I really have no right to complain about my life at the moment, but with every positive comes a negative, and I'm just confused.

What confuses me even more is how much I still want one particular person. This summer will be interesting, I'm sure.

Isn't it awesome that someones attractiveness usually increases when you feel like they're "untouchable". You always want what you can't have, and I keep believing that I can't have you. That's why out of everyone I can have on this campus, I want you the most. Makes total sense in some weird, distorted way.

Anyway, I'm writing this out of boredom, and it's lame. So the end to this.