What it comes down to is who is going to be there for you in the end. A best friend does not leave you at the drop of a dime. They don't make up stupid rumors about you behind your back, ditch you night after night, or imply that you are not allowed to make new friends. Makes sense to me. But apparently you can't say the same.
A friend should also build you up, improve your life. I don't need sucky friends that only either bring my life down or do nothing whatsoever to help it. Nobody does.
Also, another big component of a friendship is having things in common. Seriously, my friends here just look at a picture of me and my friends at home and are left confused. "How are you friends with girls like that? They don't seem like you in the slightest bit." That's a typical response. And it's the truth. You don't have to dig deep to see that. Because I was pretty much just handed my friends at home (which I am thankful for, believe it or not) I did not get the chance to pick and choose friends based on personalities, interests, and whatnot. I am not the type of girl that's into being a super shopper, being the tannest I can possibly get, willing to spend hundreds of dollars on a fucking bag, or believe that I need a guy on my arm to be something. That's not me. I'd rather go to a show, get covered in other people's sweat, get pushed around to the point where I can hardly breathe anymore, and go deaf for a day over any of that shit. Do you see the problem? Because it's pretty clear to me. I don't have all that much in common with my friends from home. And that poses a problem.
Up until middle school, every single best friend I had wound up moving away. I lost them all to things beyond my control. In middle school, I lost all my friends who jumped on the bandwagon that rested on the other side of the wall from where I was standing. Each and every one of them turned their back on me and put me through the toughest times of my life. Yeah, the people that were once my friends. In high school, my friends were full of stupid nonsense drama. I lost a best friend, and almost a few more actually, to the fact that I befriended an awesome guy who was my best friend to date. Senior year, my friends also got pissed because me and someone else in our "group" got closer, and are still best friends today. People are stupid. But anyway, I had two legit best friends at home. The end.
But one awesome thing about going away to college is that you get a new start on things. You get to pick and choose each and every friend you make. And I've made some pretty awesome friends at that. We have things in common, things that actually mean something to me. I know they have my back. They'd protect me when the time came, unlike people I previously knew.
So how can you fault me for wanting to make new friends? Did you really expect me to go off to college and sit in my dorm every hour of every fucking day interacting with no one? Yeah, it doesn't work like that. To put it simply, I'm a person with big dreams. Hell, I couldn't fit my name on my class ring so I wrote "Dreamer" instead (yeah, I really did that). I had dreams of some perfect life I wanted for myself, and at college, all of that is playing out in front of my eyes. If you had the chance, you'd do the same thing. Anybody would. And again, you can't fault me for having an awesome college experience while everyone at home hates theirs. That is beyond my control.
So drop it.
Someone once told me that one of the things they liked most about me was how upfront I am (funny, because that only happened after I called them out) but yeah. Some people like it. Many hate it. Oh well. Same goes for me being opinionated. It's got its pros and cons. You choose only to see the cons. So shoot me. Whatever. It'll be your loss.
Bam. I'm done now.
